Okay, so I’m so disappointed in myself for the past week – getting over being sick, the bad eating, the missed workouts, etc – that I have decided to revisit Week 7 of the P90X program.

And work more towards eating much less calories. I’m struggling with food. It’s PMS, I’m sure of it now. I always crave bad foods, but it’s particularly bad before my period because I just can’t say no.

Doug and I went out for a date on Saturday night to The Outback. My food choices were good (steak griller and green beans), but I also had a margarita and key lime pie.

Then we went to the movies and I had buttered popcorn and a box of Milk Duds.

So bad. And I’m bloated because of PMS and these bad food choices. It’s horrifying. I need to get back on track and accountable!

For breakfast today, I had one pancake (I added protein powder to the batter, but it kind of gives it an aftertaste, so I won’t do that again) and a boiled egg.

This morning, we took the boys to Monument Valley Park, and I went for a quick 5k run. I was on track for an under 30 minute 5k, and then my iPod battery died at mile 2.4

It felt SO good to be out there, running. The weather was awesome. Everyone was friendly and waved, and I just felt this wave of good feelings as I ran. It was just what I needed.

For lunch I had 2 taco supremes with no lettuce from Taco Bell.

For snack, I had a cameo apple (yum!)

Right about this time is when I really decided to just go back and do week 7 of the P90x program again.

For dinner, I had my leftover filet griller from the Outback, a 3 oz piece of teriyaki salmon, 2 grilled shrimp and snap peas.

For dessert, I had the rest of my key lime pie from the Outback

And THEN I did my P90X work out – Chest, Shoulders & Triceps with Ab Ripper X.

Yep. At night. After dinner. After the kids were in bed.

While doing Ab Ripper X, I had to cover my stomach with my t-shirt because my bloated belly was just too mortifying to look at. I should have just moved away from the big mirror I work out in front of. I’m so ashamed of it.

I did it, I’m sore, and I’m sure I’ll be sore tomorrow. I am planning a 5 mi run on the Santa Fe trail.

After my workout, I had a protein smoothie, along with a snack of pumpkin seeds.

This is a new week and a sort of fresh start. Let’s hope I can stay on track!