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Seriously!? What is wrong with people???

September25

So I’m driving the boys to Grandma’s after school today.  We’re driving down Uintah, and come to the tricky intersection in front of the D11 Admin Bldg, the car in front of me is going right, and the car in front of the car next to me is going left.  We both do that curve out to go around the cars, and we get close.  Dude shoots me the WTF? look, and I just shrug at him.  Whatever.

So we are getting to the intersection of Palmer Park and Uintah, I start to get in the left lane, and he cuts me off and jumps in front of me.  Nice. (that’s dripping with sarcasm for those who don’t know me well).

We get on Palmer Park and he rides in the middle of the two lanes!   thatsnotright  He finally moves to the left lane, and I cautiously try to pass him on the right, wondering if he is going to try and cut me off again.

I speed up to put distance between us and pass several cars.  He’s frakking following me!  Great.  Some psycho road rage dude is following me with the kids in the car.  Fan-frakkin-tastic.

So, he rides my ass all the way down Palmer Park.  I turn off a block early, and he doesn’t follow. Okay.  I come around the block and get to Doug’s parents house and he is WAITING across the street. 

Thankfully, Doug’s dad was in the driveway, so I just worked to get the kids out of the car as soon as possible.  He starts yelling out of his car window, calling *me* a psycho driver.  Hello???  I didn’t follow *him* for 4 miles. 

I admit, I let my anger get the best of me, and called him pathetic, and expressed how incredulous I was and what a loser he must be that he followed me for FOUR miles.  To yell at me about *my* driving?!  He starts addressing Doug’s parents.  Poor grandma & grandpa.  They yell at him to get lost.  He continues to yell out his window at me.  I tell him to go away or I will call the police.  I say some choice words like “Road rage!  Stalker!”  He keeps stopping the car like he’s going to get out, but he doesn’t.  He just yells out his frakkin window.

I am VERY unhappy that he knows where Doug’s parents live.  I want to file a police report or something. I have his license plate number.  He was driving a white Subaru wagon with his dog(s) in the back.  Can I do that?  But then he’ll know it was me, and he probably memorized my license plate number.

I shouldn’t have yelled at him, but I was already have an emotional day with Greg’s final hours, and worrying about two of my friends, both of whom are dealing with some very emotional issues.

 aargh  I’m so irritated, I could SCREAM.

Some peace for Greg…

September25

An old, dear friend of mine, a mentor, really, has been battling a rare stomach cancer since July 2005.  He’s been enduring all sorts of radical treatments and surgeries that have battered his body.

I have been following his trials through CarePages.com.  Mostly lurking, posting comments in his message board every once in a while.

After some really tough times these past few weeks, he decided to stop all treatments last week.

This morning, I read this update:

September 25, 2007 at 04:02 AM MDT
Greg was admitted into in-patient Hospice at around 4pm on Monday.

We do not anticipate that Greg will be with us much longer.

 sob

I got the update when I was getting the kids ready for school, and after what happened when Logan died, I wasn’t ready to have an emotional morning that I had to explain to them.

I told Doug about Greg, and we both kind of buried it for the kids.  I took them to school and then went grocery shopping, for almost 90 minutes, wandering around the store.   dunno

When I got home, I found and find all these wonderful cyberhugs and loving, peaceful energy for Greg. from the West Side Moms. Thank you so much.

Greg was one of my teachers at UCCS in the engineering program.  On his door, he had his office hours posted, and he listed Old Chicagos Happy Hour on Thursdays as office hours. 

I caught a lot of prejudice at school – other people thinking that I wasn’t working hard or that I wasn’t smart enough to get an electrical engineering degree.  Mostly from spiteful women who envied that I was “one of the guys” or “old-fashioned” men who didn’t believe I had a place in that field.  I actually lost out on a job after graduation because of a woman who was petty and prejudiced.  She graduated a year before me, so she lied about my abilities to the people who interviewed me.  Although it was frustrating at the time, it turns out, as it often does, that it was the best thing for me because the job I did get is still the favorite job I ever had and set me up with the skills I love and use now to work at home.

I digress.

Greg never made me feel that way.  After graduation, we saw each other often, and I will always be grateful for his encouragement and support and belief in me.

I’m so frustrated and angry because a couple of years ago, I lost another old friend to non-Hodgkins lymphoma, and he was 36.  These were both men who were healthy and vibrant and so loved.  I just don’t get why life has to be so cruel sometimes. thatsnotright sob

Okay, I need to quit crying before I pick up the boys from school…

Please send prayers and energies and thoughts of peace for him in these final hours. 

More bitching about my inability to lose weight…

September24

I have been STRUGGLING ever since Zevan was born. When Zander was an infant, I was able to work out hard EVERY DAY, and I bounced back to even thinner than my pre-pregnancy weight.

Zevan was born in April 2004. In Jan 2005, I started a weight loss program and bought BalanceLog. I lost 10 lbs by May of 2005, and was at my lowest weight in 10 years!

7 months later, I gained 6 lbs back, and then another 8 months and I gained another 6 lbs.

I know that these sound like ridiculously small numbers to some of you, but these are big numbers to me. At my size every pound counts. It doesn’t help that my best friend, who seemingly is the same size and shape as me, weighs 10 lbs less than I do.

But, c’mon, I trained from the frakking ASCENT! I worked hard on training for that. You’d think I could lose *some* weight doing that. Or at least a pants size. C’mon! I shopped at H&M while I was in NJ, and had to accept that I needed to buy size 10 to have pants that fit.

I don’t know how to increase my workouts more than I am. My long run now takes me 1 1/2 hours. I need to run even longer while I train for the marathon.

I have made some really bad food choices since the race, I will admit that. So, I’m tightening up on that. I just got BalanceLog started on my computer, so I think I just need to suck it up and start logging again.

I think if I just buckle down I can do it. I just want to do it BEFORE the holidays!

Weight check – 09/24/07

September24

09/03/07 135.6 Starting Weight

09/10/07 134.6 Week 1 Weight

09/17/07 134.0 Week 2 Weight

09/24/07 135.6 Week 3 Weight

10/08/07 130.6 Goal Weight

Crap!  I gained back all the weight I lost the past 2 weeks while I was in NJ.  A wedding, a birthday party, cheese steaks, Filipino food and NO running at all.   doh2

I know that 1.6 lbs doesn’t sound like much, I worked pretty hard to lose those. The 5 lbs I’m trying to lose is 3.6% of my total body weight.

So, now I need to lose 1.7 lbs a week for the next 3 weeks.

Time to get serious.

On my non-run days (T/Th/Sat/Sun), I plan to do some serious calorie cutting.  The same breakfast (boiled egg, slice of bacon, slice of toasted raisin bread, 6 oz juice), the same lunch (lean ham and cheese on pita bread with light mayo, and carrots/celery/snap peas on munch on, and then an uber sensible dinner (tomato soup and grilled cheese or a burger with no/half bun and salad).  One snack of a piece of fruit and one ounce of cheese.

These days I need to do some pilates or T-Tapp or strength training.

I did run today – a 50 minute tempo run without the gauge of my Nike+ iPod (dead battery).  I ran for 50 minutes without stopping or slowing to a walk.

People watching comments:
Totally cute long haired guy on a bike with a nice smile…
Two guys on the trail who looked like muppets – Animal and Beaker, in particular

The rest of today: 9/19/07

September19

Lunch

Park with the cousins – Ash, Zander and Zevan

Ice cream – Sponge Bob flavor???

Dinner

SLEEP!

We’re in NJ!

September19

I had the boys’ stuff packed over the weekend, down to the shoes. Our first trip with no diapers or pull ups! And packed my “diaper bag” with a potty ring, the DVD player that May lent me, ColorWonder books, some Sesame Street magazines, the toddler wipes – my “bag of tricks” Yesterday I tracked down car seat, booster, potty ring. And packed my stuff. I snuck in a quick T-Tapp TWO+

I am going about my business, when I realize. CRAP! It’s 11:00 AM! I was supposed to pick up the boys at 10:40 AM!

I rush to the car and drive like a maniac, wondering why no one has called me yet. Bad mom! Bad mom!

This after Zevan has such a bad time going this morning. :crap:

As I get to 19th and Uintah, my cell phone rings. I answer it, “I’m on my way. I’m so sorry. I totally lost track of time.”

I screech to a stop in front of the school, and race across the street.

I get to the office, still apologizing, and Zander and Zevan are in the doorway of the nurse’s office, on the floor. Zander is sitting, Zevan is laying with his head on his backpack.

Bad mom! Bad mom!

They both exclaim, “Mom!” when they see me and get up.

I apologize to them profusely. “It’s okay, Mom,” soothes Zander. “Mama, mama, ” Zevan hugs my leg.

Maybe I’m not SUCH a bad mom – how did I get such caring kids???


I take them over to Grandma & Grandpa’s for lunch, then I have to rush off for a lunch meeting with Mike and May about working together to get more clients and share the workload (which was really great!).

I come home and finish up some loose ends with work on clients’ sites and then continue packing.

Lisa stops by with Enrique to pick up the Wonderoos. I am amazed at how much he’s grown and how long it’s been since I’ve seen them both. It’s a nice visit.


The boys come home and we start preparing for the trip. They choose special toys and snacks for their backpacks. I pack my snacks.

We have dinner, I load up the car. Our plan is to leave between 8:00 – 8:30 PM for our red-eye flight at 11:55 PM.

I put them in front of a show. I wax my legs, eyebrows, etc. Something I wanted to fit in, and can’t believe I actually have enough time to do it.

We all load in the car. Zander says, “Don’t forget the Ready Beds!” Crap. I shove them in the bag with the carseats.


TO THE AIRPORT
About a mile from the house, I realize I don’t have my thyroid meds. I turn back to get it. We’re off again. We tell the boys to sleep. They say they can’t. They finally fall asleep around Castlerock. Despite some long traffic slow downs, due to highway painting, we get to the airport right at 10:00 PM.

I’m wishing now that I brought the double jogger because the boys are asleep. Doug drops us off at the ticketing counter (no lines for the red eye) with the luggage and goes to park the car. Zander is NOT happy about having to wake up. The boys and I sit on the floor waiting for Doug to get back. Twice, a Frontier airlines person comes to see if we need anything. I tell them I’m waiting for my husband. I spend most of my time trying to soothe Zander, with both boys in my lap.

Doug arrives, and we check in. They give Doug a special pass so he can help us to the gate (love that option!) Things go pretty smoothly through check in, security and the train to the gate. Now we’ve actually got quite a bit of time before the flight leaves. We try snacks and other distractions, finally, I just put Madagascar on the DVD player until its time to board.

Finally, it’s nearly time to board. Doug gets hugs and kisses and “I love you’s” from all of us. We take the early boarding option since I need extra time with my 2 kids under 5.


ON THE PLANE
Zevan takes the window seat, Zander goes in next, then me. I arrange all of our stuff, and let them watch Boomerang DirecTV preview time before take off.

We take off on time, I turn off their TV screens, and encourage them to sleep. Nope, it’s too loud. It’s too bright. Etc, etc

The drink cart comes, we get water and get some warm cookies that have a jet fuel aftertaste – ick.

We try several positions to sleep. No luck. I ask Zander to switch with me so I can be between them. He refuses. Zevan moves to my lap, Zander takes his vacant window seat, and then I move in the middle. They each put their heads on my lap. :happylove:

We have a family in front of us with one lap child and another barely older than 2 year old. They intermittently, and alternately, cry and fuss throughout the flight. I feel for them.

Somehow, sometime during the flight, we do get *some* sleep. First, with my head on the tray table. Finally, I actually lay on my side across the three seats, holding Zevan in front of me, with Zander laying on my legs. Of course, in our deepest sleep, the announcement of our descent wakes me up. Luckily I can get their seatbelts around them while they are laying down, and sit back up again. They sleep until we land, while I try talking them awake.


AT THE AIRPORT
We wait until nearly everyone is off the plane before we get disembark. They are awake enough to walk and pull their wheeled backpacks. I’m grateful for that.

As we walk to the baggage claim, Zevan all of sudden decides that he wants to drive in HIS car when we go to Uncle Fran’s. A long walk of crying and me expaining that our car isn’t there.

We get to baggage claim, and I call my dad. They haven’t left the house yet! We arrived 30 minutes earlier than he thought. Great.

Our luggage comes quickly, of course. We load it up on a SmarteCarte and we find a bench to sit on. After 30 minutes, we head outside to where they will pick us up. They do. I put the car seats in, and we’re off.


We pick up breakfast at Burger King. We get to my brother’s house, just as they are all waking up. We have hellos, we eat. I head up to the room and blow up the ready beds. Ash, Zander and Zevan jump on our air mattress.

Fran and Kimmie head to work, and we convince them to leave Ash with us instead of taking him to daycare.

The boys and I lay down to sleep. Zander is restless and says he’s not tired. I tell him he can go play with Ash IF he will nap when Ash goes to nap (at 11 AM). He agrees and is off. Zevan lays with me for 10 minutes, then HE wants to go play. He gets the same deal. He’s off. I go to sleep. Some hours later, they crawl into bed with me. I sleep until 12:30 PM. They sleep another two after I get up.

It’s 3:00 PM. And now we’re finally awake enough to start our visit.

Weight check – 09/17/07

September18

09/03/07 135.6 Starting Weight

09/10/07 134.6 Week 1 Weight

09/17/07 134.0 Week 2 Weight

10/08/07 130.6 Goal Weight

I totally blew my eating this weekend with chili and pie. But I did stick to running 3 times did 1 T-Tapp workout.

This week will be a BIG challenge, travelling with the kids AND eating east coast foods AND Filipino foods. I need to pack some good snacks for the plane. Fruit, cheese and nuts…

I didn’t finish the Incline yesterday (ran out of time, couldn’t find my Nike+ Ipod transmitter), but I did hike to the bail-out point and back down. I need to T-Tapp TWO+ today.

I finished one week on the new dosage of Armour Thyroid, and am feeling more energetic for sure. I didn’t involuntarily fall asleep in the middle of the day yesterday, like I usually do. So that’s good.

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