I have been STRUGGLING ever since Zevan was born. When Zander was an infant, I was able to work out hard EVERY DAY, and I bounced back to even thinner than my pre-pregnancy weight.

Zevan was born in April 2004. In Jan 2005, I started a weight loss program and bought BalanceLog. I lost 10 lbs by May of 2005, and was at my lowest weight in 10 years!

7 months later, I gained 6 lbs back, and then another 8 months and I gained another 6 lbs.

I know that these sound like ridiculously small numbers to some of you, but these are big numbers to me. At my size every pound counts. It doesn’t help that my best friend, who seemingly is the same size and shape as me, weighs 10 lbs less than I do.

But, c’mon, I trained from the frakking ASCENT! I worked hard on training for that. You’d think I could lose *some* weight doing that. Or at least a pants size. C’mon! I shopped at H&M while I was in NJ, and had to accept that I needed to buy size 10 to have pants that fit.

I don’t know how to increase my workouts more than I am. My long run now takes me 1 1/2 hours. I need to run even longer while I train for the marathon.

I have made some really bad food choices since the race, I will admit that. So, I’m tightening up on that. I just got BalanceLog started on my computer, so I think I just need to suck it up and start logging again.

I think if I just buckle down I can do it. I just want to do it BEFORE the holidays!