I dunno, it’s got to be menstrual bloat. I weigh 137.6 today.

Hopefully, I will lose at least 2-3 lbs of menstrual weight by next week. I’m trying to keep busy today…dropped off the boys and trying to clean house and do laundry to keep my mind off of food.

I was doing so well, why should one comment bring me down so low?

One day last week, my mom and I went to Ross and I found 2 super cute dresses, one to wear out for drinks and another one to wear to the wedding. They were cute and I felt good in them. This was a day or so after the mall debacle.

On Saturday, I went to 7-11 to get a money order for an auction I won, and I was annoyed that this guy didn’t take PayPal and I had to go get this. While there, I randomly picked a scratch lotto card (out of like 40 different kinds, I just blindly said, give me #17 (my lucky number). So I took it home, and forgot about it for a few hours, then I found it in the hall from the garage. I picked it up and started scratching.

I won $100 !!! So we went out to Red Robin that night, my treat…I had a margarita AND we all shared a mile high mud pie.

I have learned how to dress to conceal the now 2 year post partum belly squish – as Zevan likes to call it. I just need to pay more attention during the bloaty menstrual times apparently.

95% of the time, I am actually okay with my body now. Which is why I’m more shocked at how devastating what she said to me was. It still smarts. But I am trying hard to just let it go. I think it’s the accompanying menstrual hormones that are making this such a big hurtful deal right now. I’ve had a good cry about it , and I need to let it go.