Okay, so I am taking action! This is part of my new empowerment.

Zander and pre-school
I have asked that Zander be moved up to the 2 1/2 year old class a few weeks early. Maybe being with Miss Mary and some older children will help him enjoy being there more.

West Side Moms playdates
While I am committed to making this group work, I am no longer going to make it a primary priority. I am tired of going to playdates and being the only one there. I’m sure that it will be better in the summer time when all the playdates are outside. I have set the days, time and locations. It’s up to the other moms to come when they can. While I will attend the playdates when I can, if I get a better offer (like a trip to a museum or a family visit), I will skip it that time and not feel guilty. Or I will invite the other moms to join me to go somewhere else more appealing to me – like the zoo.

Losing weight – exercising more
This is a tough thing to stick to, but I am trying to make more of an effort to get exercise in while I can. Like going for a fast walk after breakfast when we eat at Doug’s parents house on Mondays and Wednesdays. Or going to the zoo for a more active time with the boys. Like snow shoveling or picking up dog crap before a playdate so the kids don’t step in it. I also have started just putting on music and dancing around with the boys. That’s fun!

Losing weight – eating less
This is harder to stick with than anything else. But I did drop my allowed calories to 1830 (from 2100 when I first started). May and I also decided that we would drop one meal. I decided to drop my after dinner snack time. I did okay the first 2 nights. Yesterday I was hungry all day. I usually try to keep my before dinner calories to 800-900, but yesterday I was at 1100 after lunch. Then last night we were watching a movie and I just couldn’t stand it and ended up eating some rice cakes after dinner. I went over my calories by 68 for the day.

The house
I have all these projects in my head and I can’t stay focused on any of them. I have decided my first priority home project will be the office. I spend a lot of time in there and it is a wreck!

Well, now I’m worried. Candy was admitted to the hospital for her pre-eclampsia and has to stay there until the baby is born

I know that now that she is in the hospital and being constantly monitored, that the chances of something seriously bad happening is much lower, but I am still anxious. The only “cure” for pre-eclampsia is delivery, but she is still only 34 weeks, and if the baby could hang out for another 2-3 weeks, she could go home with her mama and papa instead of having to stay in an incubator her first weeks. I’m just praying that Candy and her baby (Mischa) can hang on a while longer with risk to either of them.

I talked with Mike some yesterday, and he is being very strong and calm. I know the focus is on Candy and the baby, but this must be so hard for him, too. I know when I was first pregnant, Doug shared with me that his biggest fear was losing me.

On a more positive note, I am VERY excited to see and hold their baby for the first time. Not as excited as they are, I know, but as excited as an “aunt” could be.